Dear S.R. It makes me sad to see your struggle. I've had stutterers in my family, too, and I know part of it for them was trying so hard to be heard and clear they got overwhelmed and could barely talk. Speech therapy was helpful, but so is a calmer environment (in their case; I don't know what your environment was or is like).

I interchange the terms smart, intelligent, and gifted because they all have different meanings and mean something to different people. I don't want someone who wasn't clearly identified as "gifted" to assume they are not gifted, smart, or highly intelligent because no one officially recognized it. See, I'm talking to you! Vocabulary, by the way, is the one factor that is consistently most related to intelligence. From where I sit you might be what is called neurodivergent and/or 2e, twice-exceptional. Smart and something else that keeps you from being able to demonstrate your intelligence as easily as some others. Your highest IQ test was closest to correct, in my opinion, and I recommend you start reading up on neurodivergence and twice exceptional, okay? I'm sorry you are going through this, but just like Kelly Clarkson says, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." It is true. Check in from time to time as you progress, okay? ~ Dr. Deborah